urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen Osterman!!! Osterman!!! 2009-12-07T06:14:56Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:72982 2009-12-06T09:04:02Z 2009-12-07T06:13:06Z Its fucking scary out there. Unofficial unemployment is around 17%. I'm graduating in a year and a half so I can intern for free. Maybe our generation isn't meant to be idealistic. I'm going to have no health insurance and no job. I'm terrified. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:72741 2009-12-03T13:09:11Z 2009-12-07T06:14:04Z I've accidently have thrown my body into an unhealthy biorhythm and now it sleeps in 3 hour spurts (if its lucky).<br /><br />However, being up this early has allowed me to reflect on some of my actions and try to work out my schedule for next semester.<br /><br />I realize, that I could graduate this semester, after only 2 1/2 (the half being next semester) years of school. However, I have a whole other major to do, like, the one with importance and not bullshit. <br /><br />Anyway, I got this wacked out schedule planned that leaves me in the city on Mondays for 6 hours doing nothing. I guess this is okay, but I have a horrible feeling that I will regret this decision in the coming months. I'm trying to go to school only two days a week, and have one of those days be when newspaper meets, Wednesday. I'm attempting to look at it nicely and think "hey, a time to ____"(work out! do work! eat!), but I'm not really fooling myself. I waste a lot of time figuring out something to do.<br /><br />Also, I am rereading a lot of my entries, and I'm really disappointed and kind of embarrassed. I'm always writing that I am "afraid" of losing the person that I'm romantically involved with. I can't deny that I feel that emotion, but its kind of alarming that I think that I'm always going to be left behind or damaged in some aspect. I let myself fall into that "weak woman" mold. I never consider the other possibilities. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:72266 2009-11-30T05:51:54Z 2009-12-07T06:14:56Z It's been a while but there has been nothing much to write about. School is going fine, personal life is alright, still living in Ridgewood. I'm moving home in about two months, the shit is too expensive, I'm leeching too much and I got that guilty conscience. In time I am relatively certain I will move again but my current job is paying me only 70 bucks a week and no one has responded to my applications. Home it is.<br /><br />I have literally no friends at school. I'm pretty much all alone, but this has allowed me to figure out who really wants to chill with me and who is just blowing smoke up my ass. Its kind of irritating that I actually have to do that, but whatever, lessons learned. George attributes it to my near constant negativity, which I think is a possibility. I'm just not sure how to fix it.<br /><br />I have also have this incredible fear of losing George because of this. I'm concerned about the age difference, which is only three years, however he has a full-time semi-adult job and I'm 20 with a 8-9 hour a week job and barely a junior. I'm afraid that the age issue, coupled with my bitter attitude toward CUNY and like, "lyfe" would bore him and destroy our relationship. Wah wah. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:46745 2008-05-08T11:07:11Z 2008-05-08T11:07:11Z As soon as 4 pm comes around, I will be in the throes of a deep sleep, enjoying the last few days of perfect temperature as I lay in my dirty bed. As soon as I am rested, I will get up and do my laundry. Then I will start on HTML. Maybe clean my filthy room. <br />I'm sorry, I'm so tired. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:44348 2008-04-07T04:53:08Z 2008-04-07T04:53:08Z OH COME OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:38700 2008-02-14T07:00:26Z 2008-02-14T07:00:26Z You win, World. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:33655 2007-12-18T23:14:49Z 2007-12-18T23:14:49Z My mom just compared me to Aladdin. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:26136 2007-09-12T16:44:05Z 2007-09-12T16:44:05Z Did last night happen? Because I'm pretty sure this morning did. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:25059 2007-09-03T22:08:27Z 2007-09-03T22:08:27Z Well, whatever. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:20140 2007-08-07T16:23:45Z 2007-08-07T16:23:45Z <p>Yikes!</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:17229 2007-07-01T00:13:36Z 2007-07-01T00:13:36Z WOOOO HOOO. If i had pajamas I would want them to be made out of waaatermelon. I wish i had shoes that squeaked the news. I love pineapples. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:13724 2007-04-26T20:09:34Z 2007-04-26T20:09:34Z How can I breathe when I know people are so stupid. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:13068 2007-04-22T05:41:04Z 2007-04-22T05:41:04Z No fun. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:11586 2007-04-06T17:26:49Z 2007-04-06T17:26:49Z Im pretty cool, I like things. My name is awesome sauce. Lets all have fun with our hum doodlers and baskin' robins. Banana fool time casper!<br /><br />Lets go to fun station! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:9197 2007-03-12T14:23:15Z 2007-03-12T14:23:15Z <p>Today, I hate everything.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:1141 2007-01-22T04:12:35Z 2007-01-22T04:12:35Z <img src="http://i9.photobucket.com/albums/a57/microbeparty/KrillFlockFriendsONLY.jpg" alt="" /><br /><br /><font color="#ff0000"><font size="7">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; KRILL SPILL</font></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:citizencitizen:705 2007-01-18T21:01:43Z 2007-01-24T23:16:22Z yo like, everybody hates sylvia plath.